12 weeks pregnant

How am I feeling nowadays?

Well, the tiredness is still there but not that severe like the first few weeks. I'm getting backpains and now has resorted to sleeping with 3 stacked pillow and a booster behind my back. Its difficult for me to lie flat on my back as I will feel suffocated.

My tummy is definitely getting bigger for 3 month old! I get tired easily by just going up or down the stairs. The choking feeling is still there. All type of liquid still feels yucky to me so you can imagine how difficult it is for me to dehydrate myself this time around. Not a single type of drink appeal to me especially the yucky after taste that can definitely induce a gagging session. Its still difficult for me to see or smell poop so when Kakak Aliya demanded that mommy washes her bottom, it can become difficult.

Eating is bearable at the moment. I just realised that my stomach cannot be left empty at all time but at the same time cannot be too full. Too empty, I will be so full of wind that the effect would be a severe nausea. Too full and the effect will be just the same. So I just have to eat in small portion frequently. Thing is, I can't allow myself to vomit because, vomitting will reduce me to a vegetable and unable to function. That is something that I cannot afford to do.

My face is still full of ugly small red pimples. Feels like sandpaper. My stomach and breasts start to itch. And no, I did not lather any kind of lotion on my tummy coz the stretchmarks are already there by virtue of the previous 2 pregnancies even after copious amount of vitamin e lotions were smoothered onto my poor belly. What's the point?

I think I'm carrying a boy this time around. Why? Because I'm such a lazy cow. Not even a talcum powder on my face, not a single lipstick to lighten up my face, I don't even use perfumes nowadays. And if you drop by my house, please don't be shocked by the condition (no, our house was not ransacked, it just is... haha)

Hopefully, the 2nd trimester will be smooth sailing. BTW I am getting bigger by the moment. I'm not proud of it but what can I do? I just am...

10 weeks old

First check up today.

weight: 64.3kg (oo-ohh)

week: 10 weeks 2 days

B/P: 100/70

The tiny voice in my head is worried...

Last week was a challenging week for pregnant me. With Kakak admitted to the hospital, it was a double dosage of stress to my body what with the hormones wrecking havoc to my system. I am constantly tired as it is and caring for a sick child escalate the condition even more. There was one point where I was throwing up every hour at the hospital while Kakak was whailing in pain. It was very stressful to the body and mind.

The sight and smell of anything triggered my vomit frenzy. It doesn't help that Kakak was admitted for vomitting and dhirrea. By the time Kakak was discharged, I was flat out and my body seized to function properly.

We have both recovered. However, I'm a bit concerned coz the vomit frenzy sensation has mysteriously disappear. The nausea is still there. The choking feeling is there there but there is no more "running-to-the-toilet-to throw-up" episodes.

If this is it, then this vomit frenzy days would be the shortest among the three pregnancy. Lasted only a week? Doesn't sound right...

Also, I have not had my bump checked out yet. Have not decided when to start my monthly check up. The peculiar thing and this has me teeny weeny bit worried (other than the lack of throwing up - not that i particularly enjoy those sessions!) is that my bump has not grown as it did the previous 2 pregnancies. There's a definite bump alright but the bump is getting firmer and rounder but doesn't grow. And there's this on and off cramping sensation below the belly. Feelings I didn't have the last 2 pregnancies. My reading says its normal but the little voice inside my head is still worried.

Perhaps I should just go and get it check huh? Better be safe...